The Bleak and the Vibrant

As much as I prepared myself for this, it still hurts. I knew they would find someone else. I told them I was prepared for it. They say they wouldn't. That they wouldn't look. I knew that was a lie. Just from talking, I knew it wouldn't be true. And it was proved true.

But, in the end, I view this an opportunity to grow. From the most bleak situations, the most colorful and vibrant lessons can be learned, or qualities can be gained.

I have to realize that I really liked having someone to talk to, and to make me feel good. But, a part of me didn't want to have the term "boyfriend" attached to me. I didn't want to be another person's "boyfriend". Not after my last. That hurt too much. And now, I let myself grow closer.

Tonight, once they call me, I will see how that goes. Will they choose me, or will they choose him? My brain says "Me", but my heart says, "Them". I know that my heart speaks the truth. It is best for them to choose the other. I want them to choose the other. It is best for them; what is best for me doesn't matter right now, as I am fine being alone and independent. I don't need another person to be happy. They on the other hand, really want a person there for them. I'm glad they found it.



I really am.