Working at a place where no one tends to come can be boring, but it can also be a great time to think. An epiphany: a sudden moment of realization. One occurred today while I was at work, talking to a friend. I realized, though I may have been "chosen", to what gain does that grant me? None. Yes, it may be nice to have been, but in actuality, was I really? No. I don't think so. I have been shunned in a sense. I barely am talked to by him anymore. Thankfully, I decided to keep my options open and not become too attached. I doubted from the beginning that anything meaningful would come out of this, and as it seems, my doubts proved true. So, maybe I will slowly start to let go.
Actually, no. I will not maybe start to let go, but I will start to let go. I will though, keep my hand extended as I move away, to give them a chance to lean forward and grab it and hold on. But will that happen? We will just have to see.
Half the school year has passed already. Only another half left. I couldn't be anymore excited.
It's mostly not easy trying to let go but in life, you just have to let go if the person/thing is not doing you any good.
ReplyDeleteHappy Christmas to you!!
p/s: I love the pictures you posted on your blog. They are nice :)
guess i have to take back my comment huh :( im sorry nic. they will see the mistake they have made. your a good guy from what i know. there is someone out there just let them come to you :)
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ReplyDeletei think being 'chosen' in the first place is something to remember and be proud of, because it means that aside from having something special, that very thing can be seen by others, because there are many people who i know have something really special, yet never find someone, so they keep trudging and soul-searching when really it's just that they have trouble showing it or others are just blind to it.
so good luck for the new year and don't be too hard on yourself. :)