Saturday, December 20, 2008

The Sun Shining After a Rainy Day



He chose me! It...surprises me. I mean...ME! Who chooses me?! No one. But...he has! He has! HE HAS!

I had lost all hope. I thought, "For sure he must go for the other. The other is much closer. It would only make sense." But it seems to be true. Nothing in life ever makes sense! I love it that way! Oh, I am so full of joy!

I did give him permission though, to use the other for the physical needs that he desires though since I am not there to hold his hand, kiss him, or hold him in my arms. To me, it makes sense. Maybe not to others, but to me, it does. It doesn't anger me, or depress me. It is the logical thing to do in my eyes because I know that he isn't with the other because he loves him, but only because I am not there. In the end, he still loves me.

It is like the Japanese. I saw on a TV documentary one time, that if a man cheats on his wife in a marriage, it is alright. But, only on certain conditions. The man must only be with the other woman for physical reasons. If that is all, then it is ok. But as soon as the man starts to fall in love with the other woman, then it is crossing the line and it becomes looked down upon.


Those Japanese. How come I feel like I think a lot alike them?

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  2. sorry had to edit :) is it sad that im excited for you both?

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  3. Having an affair is always wrong regardless of the reason. I can never think or act like the Japo. LOL.

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