Here Comes the Downpour

Time to get over him, I suppose. No point in hoping for what never shall be. He messed it up before, many times, so I figured that if he really wanted it to work, he'd fix his mistakes. But I guess not. So I'll just take the safer route and get out of this dangerous cycle when I can.

Visiting Drexel just reassured me that this is the college for me. I cannot wait.

And I also decided that I shall be a "relationship hermit" in college. I just want to have fun and not have any kind of hookups or relationships in college. Just study and have fun with everything.


Time for a walk in the thunderstorm.

In The Clouds, Where Time Really Looks Endless

I hate to talk about the future, as I know it is something undetermined, and yet, I wonder, is it written in the strands of time? Is the future really undetermined, or is it really all set out for us to fulfill, and it is only seen as a mystery to us because the normal person can't see that far into the future to solve the mystery?

Many things in life are deemed inevitable. Many things aren't really as inevitable as some would suggest or perceive. Growing up and dying. Two of the only inevitable events or occurrences that really happen through life. All that matters is how you deal with them.

Going through the whole growing up and out into another realm of life is disheartening, exciting, and tiring. Who knew something could be so filled with so many different things?




I must admit, I am one of those who would be excited for high school reunions. I want to see how everyone has changed and grown up. See how they tackled the inevitable challenge. See who was overcome by the challenge, and who overcame it.



Sometimes, I feel dumb for dreaming. And yet, I feel comfort in those dreams full of fiction. Why must I be so dumb as to wish for things such as this. Even I, the Dreamer, do not fully know. Though, the lack of comprehending, may not be such a bad thing.

Tumbling Views of Silence

"I feel that I am flawed if I have a gay child."

I don't understand how one can be a parent and say that honestly. Especially since my Mother was the one who stated such. Tomorrow, mother and I are having a chat. Time for me to be firm and harsh. I predict she won't like the conversation, but I'm going to love it.

Day of Silence is coming up. The 17th. Participating? Why yes I am. Silence, wearing red, and doing it all. Woo.

Inside emotions still a tumble weed, tumbling round and round.

Not in the mood to write a long blog.

Short and sweet tonight.

Just Set Me On Fire

I hate my feelings.


I hate knowing I'll like them no matter what they do.




Life sucks.




Well....



For the most part anyways.

My Treat To Myself

I love walking in the rain.

Especially at 11:30 PM with one of your best friends.

Going from the glow of a lamp post and seeing the constant, slight drizzle slowly falling to the Earth, then continuing on to the darkness between lamp posts and seeing nothing, just feeling the water hit your skin. Then later reemerging into another luminous streak from the lamps and being able to see again.



Walks in the rain - my treat to myself.