Realization: I don't care what happens at Otakon between "us". If it does, it does. If it doesn't, it doesn't. If it does, I won't feel bad. If it doesn't, I won't be sad. Either way, it is fine with me.
Realization: Everyone cares more about this situation than I do...and their not even directly involved with it. Josh doesn't realize why he is pinned the "bad guy" and honestly, neither do I. I mean, yes, he is with Drew; yes, he ignores me from time to time; yes, he still likes me and all that shit. But I'm the one who told him to go for Drew, and I'm not surprised he ignores me. It may not be purposely if it because he is with his boyfriend. Sometimes, alone time away from everyone, including the phone, is good. I'd do it if I was Josh from time to time. Josh isn't the bad guy, but he isn't anywhere near being a good guy either. And neither am I in this. He is just a person doing what he will do. I can't stop that, and I wouldn't want to. He sounds happy when he talks about Drew, which makes me happy. Though, talking about Valentine's Day was awkward a bit. I want to watch some good horror/slasher/zombie/comedic romance movies that day. I want the formerly mentioned situation to just be put on hold between everyone besides Josh and I and never start again. Ha.
Hello Realization. How have you been? I missed you dearly. I'm glad you paid a visit.
It's funny how other people react more strongly than you do when the situation doesn't even involve them. Sometimes people even try to teach you how to run your life or relationship with somebody.
ReplyDeletePeople used to give me so much of shit and relationship pointers (that I never asked for) while I was dating my German ex. They wanted to have a say and it was really suffocating.